So, while simultaneously battling a persistently painful tooth and forcing a horribly stubborn application to work, I somehow found time to google my ex-crush, M. Espina.
Yes, ex-crush.
I have no exes, so I have to settle for stalking my former crushes. I used to do it with Friendster, then Facebook. Now I go straight to the source of it all: Google.
It sounds stupid, I know, but some days I just get this name in my head and I start looking for that person. It’s random, unexplainable and slightly creepy. But that’s just me on a good day.
Anyway, Google says Mr. Espina is doing well and good in the indie film circuit. Apparently, he’s also a vegetarian with two pet goldfish to keep him company. Interesting. Makes me wonder what Google says about me, but that’s not the point.
And it’s not just him I stalk online. I look for my crushes in high school, college, workplace, etc. I try not to get found out, though, because it would take a looot of explaining to do, and I’m not very fond of that.
I don’t really get a lot of satisfaction out of stalking my ex-crushes online; it’s just something I do to while away the time. I can’t even remember much about Mr. Espina, to be honest. I remember he was thin, took Philosophy, played the bass and was my Editor-in-Chief. Beyond that I can’t quite remember.
So why google the guy? There’s only one possible answer:
*cue Dick “I was born to rape and pillage” Israel’s laughter*
Because I can.

June 25th, 2008 at 12:47 am
I used to Friend-stalk and Google my old crushes, too. It was a terrible compulsion, one I think I’m finally rid of. Until the next one comes along, that is. *cue ‘Psycho’ theme*
June 25th, 2008 at 7:49 am
Hahaha. That’s what we do
It’s fun, actually.
June 25th, 2008 at 11:16 am
I’m getting my fix for my commetus stonus immaculatitis. That was bad wasn’t it? Just let me know when it starts getting creepy. Kidding aside I enjoy reading your stuff.
Anyhoo… I can’t relate to this google stalking thing. Not that I haven’t done it, I’ve done it plenty (I even googled myself once… ok maybe more than once). I don’t get any pay-off most of the people I know and use to know is unknown to google or any other search engines. Hmm… maybe that says more about the circle of people I walk with.
-till next.
June 25th, 2008 at 12:38 pm
Wahaha. I do that from time to time too. One of my crushes doesn’t come up in my searches, but I did find his sister :p It’s harmless fun, I think.
June 25th, 2008 at 5:15 pm
I also Googled my crush’s GF, is that bad?
June 25th, 2008 at 7:12 pm
@Marman - no problem. I’ll just get my thugs to work you out when it gets creepy. Capiche? I’m kidding.
Thanks for always dropping by. I googled myself before, but not much can be found about me hehe. I was surprised that google had a lot to say about him (the ex-crush) but maybe it’s because he actually became someone important after graduation.
Not all my crushes can be found on google though.
@kat - Hahaha. I know. As long as you don’t start sending “I Know what you did…” message, it’s good fun.
@Lenggai - According to me? No. I do that all the time. You gotta check out the competition hehhehe