Tonight I’m not playing the good guy anymore.
Always, I try not to be that whiner who wails constantly about the state of this country. There’s no point ranting and raving constantly without doing your share to make things better. I know it’s difficult to make a difference, but always I’ve sought not to be the stupid ass shouting invectives at heaven, cursing this godforsaken nation.
But now I really just want to say this out loud, with no care, concern or hesitation.
I want out.
I want nothing more to do with a country that awards criminals and crucifies the honest.
Where children have to get an eye poked out before someone gives them a scholarship.
I want nothing more to do with a country that shrugs off murders, human rights violations and corruption.
I’m just sick of all this crap.
But of course, like some stupid kid I can never stay mad at my country for long. Beneath the anger, the depression, the disgust … there’s always some sort of love.
But not today. I need time to deal with this shit.
June 20th, 2008 at 3:14 pm
It does seemed pretty hopeless, my sister, cousin and best friend were pretty much saying the same things. You’re all smart people so that really is saying a lot. I’m a hopeless optimist… but I’ll refrain… your post title said it all.
June 21st, 2008 at 12:48 pm
Yeah. But I’m still thinking about leaving for work abroad. Soon hopefully.
June 23rd, 2008 at 4:08 am
hayyy…. am indulging you. you plan to work abroad? only then you would know how really lovely pinas is
but good luck. it is your choice but dont forget to continue loving our pinas, kailangan nya tayo e. and you know what, my hubby and i are planning to stay in pinas sa lalong madaling panahon 
June 23rd, 2008 at 8:47 am
hello kengkay. I know how sad it is. Dati a few weeks lang for work sa ibang bansa naiiyak na ko. kaso nakakainis lang kasi minsan. Parang wala nang nangyayari. Kahit anong pilit natin baguhin ang sistema, ang sarili natin kung yung iba ayaw magbago walang mangyayari. Haay. Nalulungkot ako kasi ayokong maging ganito.